journey after subfertility

Today, it's mommy day.

Reflected few days back on every single moments that I had with my mom.
How I used to make my own mommy's day's card for her, now, it's only taking my mom and family out for a fine meal.

once upon a time, me and my sis

My mom was there when I needed her the most, and she is always there whenever I needed her now. I'm all grown up, but I believe, in my mom's heart, I am always that little fat son of hers.

Every moments with my mom, I shall keep it tightly in my heart.

The journey of motherhood is never easy. And my dearest wife, is herself, a struggling young mother, who balancing her work and family, made her the stronger and more admirable role model for my Aedan.

I am truly glad that I had two wonderful mothers beside me in my life - one's my Mom, the other, my son's Mom a.k.a. my wife.

If journey of motherhood is not easy, the journey prior to that is even more complicated, especially so, if one is struggling with subfertility.

My mom had a fair share of struggle with subfertility as well.
She was having difficulty conceiving after a long period of time after tying the knot.
Resorted to several traditional ways.
Looked for chinese bomohs.
Pray Choo Sen Niang Niang (Goddess of Birth).
Took a god-daughter (my cousin sister).
Etc and etc and etc.
Succeeded before going for gynae consultation.

One of my wife's friend, painstakingly struggle with subfertility for 9 years. exhausted all the traditional method. through gynae consultation, gone through IUI (intrauterine insemination) for a few times, and finally referred to Alor Star for IVF (in vitro fertilization) scheduled for in July.

I hope for the best for her.

As for one of my friend whom had undergone IVF after being subfertile for a long period of time is currently recuperating at home after having abdomen all bloated, complicated with ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome. Her IVF success is still uncertain.

I wish her well.

Lastly, I guess this lady from another continent, really had faced infertility bravely and pulled through with a twin.

April 2000 – Got married, went off birth control pills
Nov 2000 – had a lap to check that insides were all ok
Jan 2001 – IUI#1 – negative
Feb 2001 – IUI#2 – negative
April 2001 – IUI#3 – negative
May 2001 – IVF#1 – cancelled, due to poor response
Sep 2001 – IVF#2 – 25 eggs, zero fert, rescue ICSI, negative
Jan 2002 – IVF#3 – 35 eggs, 34 embies, positive, but ectopic
Apr 2002 – IVF#4 – FET, negative
May 2002 – IVF#5 – FET, negative
Jun 2002 – IVF#6 – FET, negative
Nov 2002 – IVF#7 – 28 eggs, 24 embies, positive, vanishing twin, miscarriage at 8w3d, D&C
May 2003 – IVF#8 – 8 eggs, 4 embies, positive, quads, S/R to twins, lost one twin, Luke at 21w
Jan 2004 – Ben born prematurely at 26w, 4 Jan 2004, died 14 Jan 2004
Feb 2003 – lap and HSG
April 2004 – IVF#9 – 20 eggs, 18 embies, positive, twins
Jan 2005 - Adam and Kate born 7 Jan 2005

I am glad infertility, that's one journey that me and my wife not going through.

To my lovely forever young mom, and my yummy-mummy dearest wife,

KL tower 2006: 2 world greatest mom!!

HAPPY MOM'S DAY!!

1dark,twisted,violent malaysia

food.. wasted...

one for all, and all goes for one

what a drag!!

would it be a butterfly, if it couldn't fly,
would it be a bee, if it couldn't sting,
would it be a fish, if it couldn't swim,
would it be a book, if there isn't any words,
would it be a state, if there isn't any law and order,
would it be peace, if there is only theatrical noise,
would it be democracy, if people's voice is being silenced,
would it be a birthday cake, if death already came prior,
would it be easier, if we just live a productive life,
and always remember and be reminded,
that the most peaceful day will come,
when every vote in the next general election,
will make sure the one not worthy of ruling,
will be the butterfly which couldn't fly,
the bee which couldn't sting,
the fish which couldn't swim,
and the following elected regime,
be judged as such, in a similar way,
a country need to move forward, peacefully.
are we ready?

pilocarpine

borderless creativity

by a thing, the great minds can grow ideas.
by a skull, noteworthy creativity is unleashed.
nothing is scarier than the mind becoming rusty and dumb dumb.
probably i should get one thing of my passion and spin my left cerebral hemisphere into wild loops of creativity...
but then again, my passion is in O&G, so, it might probably would be vulgar and X-rated.

help yourself with the skull collection below:

cute skull doll... cute = adorable but ugly


shao nga skull... damn cute

skull hidden over the pants..

public satisfaction on 7th may

reminds me of the Don.

Just this morning, a lady of whom post op for a small surgery was told to come 2 weeks after operation defaulted and came after 4 months. She thought everyone in the Ministry is just dumb asses loading our buttocks in the clinic's chair, happily swindled her way into registering herself and getting a number for the clinic without getting any clinic appointment.

She was perfectly well. Today is practically loaded with pregnant women, and she ain't going to be chipped in between resulting in longer wait for the other pregnant women.

Patient: I nak tengok doktor
Nurse: Nanti I tanya doktor

Nurse came to me

N: Can see today?
Me: Huh? Urgent ar? What? This small operation? 4 months already, she must be jumping.
N: She walk around well.
Me: Many pregnant moms not seen yet, she lives nearby, ask her to come tomorrow.
N: Ok.

Nurse went to patient.

N: come tomorrow.
P: Huh? Where can?
N: why?
P: I didn't go work today. I want MC.
N: You only want MC is it?
P: err.. never mind.. (went off sheepishly)

Nurse came to tell me.

N: She just want to take MC
Me: Ask her to come next year. I ran out of MC this year.

And then, after totally exhausted seeing patient, I read about this...

From the Star,

“Public servants must use public satisfaction as a yardstick in mea­­suring the level of their efficiency and not just look at the qua­­litative and quantitative values attributed to their work,” he said.

What public satisfaction?

Is the public ever satisfied?

The Perakian public is not satisfied.
Not satisfied in a political quadmire.
Not satisfied with hopping toads.
Not satisfied with voting Bukit Gantang leading to nowhere.
Not satisfied for failure of proper representation by the people.
Not satisfied that Wong Chin Huat (my favorite political scientist, as well) arrested.
Not satisfied that something harmless like wearing black also can get into trouble

probably these guys will be wearing white tux on 7th may

I am not in support of 1BlackMalaysia... but I believe wearing black is fashionable and I shiok!!

7th may - just wear black (not that it would make any difference)

Awesome TV series about Artantuya's death!

According to Susan Loone:

So, there’s going to be a Hong Kong TV series on how the late Altantuya was killed. The story will be based on French Liberation reporter Arnaud Dubus’ investigations. His search took him to Ulaanbator, to KL and back to Paris, where he implicated a french company in a shaddy submarine deal involving our government. The deal, he implied, was what eventually led to the horrific murder of Altantuya, who turns 31 this May 6. We bet it would be the TV series of the year!

Few big questions remains:

1. will this show be banned in Malaysia?
2. is it still downloadable through Malaysia's web?
3. which actor 'lucky' enough to be playing Naif Ton Rasa?
4. which actress 'plastic' enough to be playing the missus?

reaksi mat black...